If I had $100 for every time someone asked me this lately, I could hire someone to write for me. I’m really, really sorry! I never wanted to be that author, but some things are out of my control. I would love nothing more than a large, uninterrupted time slot which I could devote to writing again—it’s the reason I got involved in this fandom in the first place. The sad part is that I don’t anymore, and when I do, I have to juggle all the other extracurricular things I enjoy doing as well.
I enjoy writing, but it’s a lot of work. I can’t devote every spare minute I have to it, and I have to believe I’m not the only author who feels that way. I don’t mind people asking me when I’m going to post or telling me that they miss updates. It’s motivating. It makes me feel good. ZOMG, people still care about my fanfic and that is awesome!
But (for me anyway) there’s a big difference between curious longing and demanding an update. Even politely asking for one can rub me the wrong way.
“I really enjoy ABC, but when are you going to update XYZ?”
“Please update ABC. I’ve been waiting a really long time.”
“Why haven’t you updated for a month?”
“You should spend less time posting pictures of Rob on Tumblr and write more XYZ.” (Yes, someone seriously said something like that to me, because apparently hitting “reblog” takes the same amount of time and effort as writing a chapter.)
The fandom is my escape, and I love being here. I have 10x as many tweets from @o_Oza as I do with my RL account, my Tumblr actually has followers, I have friends on GoodReads and people to play WWF and Draw Something with, and that’s great. But when people insinuate that I’m misspending my free time by reading (paper books!) when I could be writing, it’s very disheartening.
Hopefully this doesn’t come across as bitchy. I just need to vent. I’m not trying to point fingers or make anyone feel bad. I’m sure readers who leave comments like that aren’t trying to be rude. I just really wish people would think about how their comment might be interpreted before they leave it. I’ll be the first to say I’ve probably been guilty of it, especially before I started writing. I handle a lot of situations differently now (reviews, tweets, PMs, fangirling) because I have more perspective. It’s kind of like getting a review from someone who’s all angry and worked up, and you have no idea if they loved it, hated it, or loved to hate it. ZOMG WHAT DO THEY MEAN BY THIS I DONUT KNOW!
I don’t think for a moment that readers don’t appreciate the work authors put into their stories, nor do they think writing should be an author’s number one priority. I believe this with all my heart, so why do comments like the ones above make me feel guilty for catching up on the final season of The Tudors when I could be writing?
Maybe I’m just too sensitive.
The one thing I know for sure is that I am going to start writing ahead for my next story. Having something to post on a weekly basis is a lot less stressful.
For those of you who are waiting for updates, it won’t be too much longer. I promise! Thank you for sticking around. ♥